Negative Emotions
Negative Emotions
April 26, 2013
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tAvzsjcBtx8
This isn’t going to be a rant about how stressed I am currently. Anger does nothing good for the soul and let’s other’s control your emotions. No other person should ever have that right.
All through my life I have always tried being a mother to others and have failed. It has upset me until now because I couldn’t understand why I was failing. I tried being a mother to my sister, to my friends, to boyfriends, and it really didn’t work. I want to help people while they are in their worst. I kept failing because I am not meant to be their mother. They have mothers. I realize they too need to go through difficult times their own way, and even when they feel they need somebody to sort out their stuff, they really need themselves. They need a steady amount of self worth and positivity to get through. I haven’t gotten as far as I have without help, but I know how to think for myself and am learning to take care of myself.
I may have sucked at being everybody else’s mom, but I know that I am constantly there for my own son. I have turned being into a terrible mom for other’s into being a caring and compassionate mother in real life. I know that we will have problems in the future, but I know that he will love me because I show him love every day.
Somehow throughout the way my thought process became a negative force field. I’m not sure what happened but my thoughts go through this haziness that takes part of the truth out and creates and new thought. I don’t know how to describe it any better because it is just as messed up as it sounds. It’s like there has to be some bad meaning behind everything.
Physically, I am afraid to cry. I really feel like I will crumble and there will be nothing left. A few weeks ago I was telling my health coach about some harder times in my life and he seemed weirded out that I couldn’t cry. Tears might be in my eyes, but I don’t cry in front of people. We discovered that I have problems grieving. I was dealing with some family moving away and I was upset, but there was no way that I could express it because I was unable to grieve.
We also discussed that the three most important things to focus on in life are:
Exercise- it makes you feel better and makes you healthier (Duh)
Laughing- taking pleasure in all of the little things. Every time my son does or says something crazy and funny, embrace it.
And Intimacy- there are a ton of different types of intimacy, but it’s all worth focusing on.
I have many things to work on and to improve myself, but understanding where I am going wrong is a key element. Emotional health is just one way that I need to improve.
“They think of themselves as lazy and lucky. If they did anything at all, it was so simple that anyone lese could do the same- for all that they have done is to recognize a universal fact of life, something as true of the wear and foolish of the wise and strong. They would even say that in the respect there is some advantage in being weak and foolish, for the possession of a strong will and a clever head makes some things very difficult to see.”
From Become What You Are by Alan Watts, pg. 5
April 26, 2013
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tAvzsjcBtx8
This isn’t going to be a rant about how stressed I am currently. Anger does nothing good for the soul and let’s other’s control your emotions. No other person should ever have that right.
All through my life I have always tried being a mother to others and have failed. It has upset me until now because I couldn’t understand why I was failing. I tried being a mother to my sister, to my friends, to boyfriends, and it really didn’t work. I want to help people while they are in their worst. I kept failing because I am not meant to be their mother. They have mothers. I realize they too need to go through difficult times their own way, and even when they feel they need somebody to sort out their stuff, they really need themselves. They need a steady amount of self worth and positivity to get through. I haven’t gotten as far as I have without help, but I know how to think for myself and am learning to take care of myself.
I may have sucked at being everybody else’s mom, but I know that I am constantly there for my own son. I have turned being into a terrible mom for other’s into being a caring and compassionate mother in real life. I know that we will have problems in the future, but I know that he will love me because I show him love every day.
Somehow throughout the way my thought process became a negative force field. I’m not sure what happened but my thoughts go through this haziness that takes part of the truth out and creates and new thought. I don’t know how to describe it any better because it is just as messed up as it sounds. It’s like there has to be some bad meaning behind everything.
Physically, I am afraid to cry. I really feel like I will crumble and there will be nothing left. A few weeks ago I was telling my health coach about some harder times in my life and he seemed weirded out that I couldn’t cry. Tears might be in my eyes, but I don’t cry in front of people. We discovered that I have problems grieving. I was dealing with some family moving away and I was upset, but there was no way that I could express it because I was unable to grieve.
We also discussed that the three most important things to focus on in life are:
Exercise- it makes you feel better and makes you healthier (Duh)
Laughing- taking pleasure in all of the little things. Every time my son does or says something crazy and funny, embrace it.
And Intimacy- there are a ton of different types of intimacy, but it’s all worth focusing on.
I have many things to work on and to improve myself, but understanding where I am going wrong is a key element. Emotional health is just one way that I need to improve.
“They think of themselves as lazy and lucky. If they did anything at all, it was so simple that anyone lese could do the same- for all that they have done is to recognize a universal fact of life, something as true of the wear and foolish of the wise and strong. They would even say that in the respect there is some advantage in being weak and foolish, for the possession of a strong will and a clever head makes some things very difficult to see.”
From Become What You Are by Alan Watts, pg. 5
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